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Grappling with “not knowing”…

Wednesday Wisdom 🙂


Inspiration this week comes from the following verse from Deuteronomy 29:29 as well as study in the book of Revelation:

“The Lord our God has secrets known to no one. We are not accountable for them, but we and our children are accountable forever for all that He has revealed to us, so that we may obey all of the terms of these instructions.”


I am nearing the end of the New Testament study that I started last spring. A couple of weeks ago, I delved into the book of Revelation which is the last book of the Bible. Revelation has historically been hard for me as I struggle with both the language and some of its’ messages. I’ve read the New Testament in its entirety several times over the past five years, finding more clarity each time that I read it. So, this time I made a goal to approach Revelation with a desire to look past my fear in order to gain understanding.

Both our teaching pastor and our discipleship pastor encouraged me to “not get stuck” on the questions that Revelation does not clearly explain; but rather, to ask the Holy Spirit to help me discern the messages that God wants to make known to me. That was really good advice. Not just for reading Revelation, but also for studying the rest of the Bible. I have a bad habit of both “grappling with not knowing”, and also fearing what I do not understand. This distracts me from searching out the message that the Holy Spirit is trying to put on my heart.

Let me offer a metaphoric example: I love to run. Before I broke my leg, running was a daily safe haven for me. It was a time when I could let my mind be free and drift. I often prayed while I ran the gravel roads by our farm. One day I headed off for a long run. A couple of miles into it, I got a rock in my shoe. The discomfort of the rock interrupted and dominated my thoughts. While the rock was in my shoe, it was the only thing I could think about. I got “stuck” on the rock and was unable to attain the normal mental calmness that I get while running. Eventually, I stopped to remove the rock. As soon as I did, my mind was free again.


The above verses from Deuteronomy point out something incredibly valuable for me. I believe that they serve as a reminder of our heavenly Father’s expectations. As God’s children, we are accountable for what He has revealed to us. We are asked to follow the instructions of the Holy Spirit as we study the Word of God. There is no expectation that we will know everything, and God will not hold us accountable for those things that we are unable to discern. There is a freedom for me to be found in that. I’m a good “worrier”. I dislike making mistakes and that makes me very cautious. This is a trap for me as sometimes it keeps me from moving forward.

I think that God wants us to bring our questions to him. And, I believe that He helps us to find enough of the answers that we are able to continue to grow in faith as long as we keep our focus. What I’ve come to understand more fully over the past several weeks is that obedience to God is a clear path. I don’t need to worry that I am going to miss a turn as long as I focus on what Jesus puts in my heart and the Spirit puts on my mind. There are details that I don’t need to comprehend today in order to continue to live faithfully. Letting those details go gives me freedom to focus on what I do understand instead of getting “stuck” grappling with the things that I don’t. When I remove those “rocks”, then I can find peace “running” in faith and trusting that I will be led in love and righteousness.

 

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Guided By the Light…

Wednesday Wisdom 🙂


Inspiration this week comes from Psalms 119:105:

“Thy word is a lamp to my feet, And a light to my path.”


Our family road tripped across the country last week combining family visits with college tours.

9 days – 12 states – 5 colleges – 3 family visits

We rented a van and packed our faith as we set out on our second family road trip in 22 years 🙂 My favorite farmer laughed that who wouldn’t want to explore the eastern half of the United States with four teenagers! It amazes me that our children are old enough to be thinking about college, but that appears to be the reality. My favorite brunette ships off to begin her college journey in a few weeks, and our next two are starting to figure out where life will lead them after high school.

Learning to trust is hard, but it is an important requirement for letting go. I have loved and cared for my children for 18 years. There is a part of my heart that really hurts at the thought of having my babies leave my home and travel out into the world. While my head knows that leaving the house prepared to share their faith and talents is the ultimate goal, my heart doesn’t want to let them go.

As I personally struggle with this, I find comfort in the knowledge that my kids are learning to be anchored in faith and guided by the light. We travel that spiritual journey together. None of us have all of the answers, while all of us have questions. That’s okay. We are called to be faithful — to find wisdom in God’s word, Jesus’s love, and the Holy Spirit’s influence — not to know everything. Faith is about living in the moment and opening your heart to God’s mission. It’s not about answers, it’s about trust.


The above passage from Psalms appeared on a plaque inside an academic building at Davidson College. My sister-in-law is a Davidson alumni and my favorite blonde cowgirls are enamored with the school. We visited it as a part of our family road trip. I love to see scripture posted on college campuses. College students are just getting used to “adulting” and likely need a gentle reminder to look to God in order to live in the light. A supportive spiritual setting allows them to find success amidst the freedom of living on their own for the first time.

I remember a car ride a couple of years with the girls. As we neared home, I turned to Ashley Grace as asked her, “how do you know the path that God wants you to take when you have to make a decision?” She confidently responded, “I open up my bible and read whatever page it falls open to. Some passage always jumps out to me so that I find God’s guidance.” That conversation has come to mind several times over the past few weeks as I prepare to begin this next stage of parenting. Despite the fact that I have to let go, it comforts me to know that her faith is strong — anchored in a loving relationship with God and influenced by His word and active presence in her life.

It is much easier to travel the journey when the path is glowing with light 🙂

 

 

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Gates and Doors…

Wednesday Wisdom 🙂


Today’s scripture can be found in Revelations 3: 20.

Look! I stand at the door and knock. If you hear my voice and open the door, I will come in, and we will share a meal together as friends.


As a cattle farmer, I spend a lot of time thinking about gates. Gates are essentially doors used for animals and provide critical tools for a cattle caregiver. Sometimes gates are physical, and sometimes they are the metaphorical ones that lead to a mental connection — either way, they are the pathways for forward progress.

I often think to myself:

  • Are the correct gates open to allow my cattle to go where I need them to go?
  • Are the correct gates closed to keep my cattle from going somewhere that I do not want them to go?
  • As a leader, do I correctly manage the gates as I either invite or discourage my cattle?

The simplest way to lead my animals is to cause my idea to be their idea. When we share the same thought, then we find harmony in whatever farm chore is being done. The first part to sharing a thought is gaining attention. While I don’t “stand at the door and knock” — I do the cow equivalent and enter their space until they lift their eyes and grant me their curious attention.  The moment that I become their focus, then I can begin to open the communication gate and guide them to the correct physical gate. 

There is always a choice involved, and sometimes I need to be persistent in the proper position with my animals until they chose to make that connection with me. I must be patient as well as sensitive because if I link up with them at the right moment and in the right way, then the cattle not only follow my direction but they also continue to view me as their trusted leader and caregiver. While I use physical gates and fences to help guide them, finding the doorway to their brains provides the key to having a healthy and low stress experience.


It seems to me that God makes a perfect cowboy. As a tenaciously patient and loving leader, he uses the Holy Spirit to stand at my door and knock. My awareness and willingness to engage drives whether or not we travel the journey together. He persistently pursues — always knocking and waiting for me to respond.

  • I know that there are times that God knocks and I miss it — either letting the chaos of daily life distract me from the call, or ignoring the invitation because I fail to get my priorities in the correct order.
  • I also know that my hours are better – my days are better – and my life is better when I open the door to my heart and mind to answer the call.

Sharing time with God makes life meaningful. It brings peace to the world’s chaos and reminds me of the importance of centering my life with love. Like a good friend, God offers unconditional strength and support as I travel the journey. The trinity makes a remarkably powerful combination and I have come to realize how important it is to be a part of His team.

There are many farming references in the Bible, and I think that my life is most complete when I am both one of God’s sheep as well as a loving shepard to those whom God places along my path.

Love, strength, and purpose all live on the other side of the door — We simply need to answer the knock.

 

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