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I am enough…

Wednesday Wisdom 🙂


Inspiration this week comes from 2 Samuel 22: 2-3

“The Lord is my rock, my fortress, and my savior; my God is my rock, in whom I find protection. He is my shield, the power that saves me, and my place of safety.”


1991 Florida State Cross Country Champions…

I’ve struggled with confidence for as long as I can remember. Despite making good grades and being a successful athlete in multiple sports, the worry that I wasn’t enough haunted me during my teenage years. I’ve developed ways of dealing with this challenge as an adult, but it comes back to bother me from time to time. We live in a world that prizes performance – medals that hang around our necks or fancy diplomas/titles that demonstrate superiority. It provides a perfect playing field for doubt to thrive in those people that – like me – struggle believing that they have what it takes to be worthy. 

God’s brought many young people into my life over the past decade. I’ve been blessed to play a role their athletic and life journeys. My past experiences allow me a window into many of their hearts as I get to mentor them. The athlete that pulls most at my heart is the unconfident one. I not only see their struggle, but I feel it.

Fear of failure – fear that I am not enough is a terribly heavy burden to carry, not just on the athletic field but also in life.


Monday evening God put this prayer on my heart. I share it today for all those who battle fear on their journey.

Heavenly Father,

Help me to believe that I am enough. That I was enough the day that You breathed life into me, and I am still enough today. Place your love in my heart and help me to hear you calling me by name. Help me to release the worry of falling short.

When you ask me to go, please grant me the courage to go where you ask. When you ask me to stay, give me the patient strength to be confident that I am where you want me to be. Either way, help me to do it with my whole heart – with the trust that You will carry me.

I know that it’s my job to follow your call. Help my heart to truly believe that You will fill the gap when the ask is hard. Place the conviction that I need in me so that I can trust. Bless me with your grace and peace. Hold my hand as we walk the journey.

Lord, help me to give you all of my effort – everything that I have. Remind me to work willingly at whatever I do, as though I am always working for You. I promise to move my legs as you promise to guide them. I promise to seek You and be willing to offer my work as a sacrifice, as I know that you are steadfast in your love.

Help me to run with endurance the race that You have set before me – with a cheerful and confident heart – believing in the power of your love and knowing that you call me your own. That alone makes me enough. Strike away the doubts that haunt me so that I can live in your grace and peace.

In Jesus’ name I pray.

Amen

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Steadfast…

Wednesday Wisdom 🙂


Inspiration this week comes from the Gospel of John 18: 1-4

“After saying these things, Jesus crossed the Kidron Valley with his disciples and entered a grove of olive trees. Judas, the betrayer, knew this place because Jesus had often gone there with his disciples. The leading priests and Pharisees had given Judas a contingent of Roman soldiers and Temple guards to accompany him. Now with blazing torches, lanterns, and weapons, they arrived at the olive grove.

Jesus fully realized all that was going to happen to him, so he stepped forward to meet them. “Who are you looking for?”


This summer, I’ve been blessed to take part in a middle school / high school girls Bible study. Reading God’s word takes on a new significance when you are blessed to be able to share it with a group of intelligent and faithful young women. We have learned a lot of things about Jesus during our study of the Gospel of John, but what has jumped off the page at me over the last couple of weeks is a greater understanding of how steadfast Jesus is.

He believes.

He loves.

And, he leads with a gentle heart and nerves of steel.

Whether he is healing the sick, sharing parables of wisdom, visiting with a troubled woman at the well, or facing death at the hands of his own people, the same Jesus shows up every single day. Regardless of circumstance – He is steadfast because he trusts in God. He shows us what happens when you live with wholehearted faith, and holds out his hand to help us travel that same journey.


My girls have a family joke that I am like Old Faithful — I have things that yank my chain and inspire a flair of temper with relative frequency. In fact, there was a rumor that my hair used to turn red as my temper built signaling a coming eruption 😉 A couple of years ago, I figured out that as God continued to call me to work with young athletes that I needed to change this habit in order to be faithful.

I needed the steadfastness of Jesus.

Jesus spent his life intentionally stepping into God’s call – regardless of circumstance with a quiet confidence and selfless heart. Even when his crucifixion is eminent and Peter lashes out in fear induced temper and cuts off the ear of a soldier, Jesus calms the situation and heals the man. He is steadfast, with his eyes and heart completely focused on God’s call.

What is your response when you are challenged or someone yanks your chain?

I’d like to report that I act like Jesus, but the truth is that I likely fail as often as I succeed. I’ve got a bit of Peter in me – despite the fact that I love Jesus, sometimes my emotions get the best of me and I make mistakes. Jesus loved Peter through those moments of failure, and my heart tells me that Jesus loves me through those times as well. My faith calls me to lean into Jesus, to draw from his peaceful confidence.

That gives me hope.

I’ve come to realize that hope allows for peace and love to prevail – even when circumstances are grim. I am thankful that my source of hope is steadfast, and each time He steps toward me to ask, “Who are you looking for?”, I pray that I will reach out to take a hold of his hand with the same quiet confidence and trust with which it is offered.

 

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F.E.A.R.

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I found this quote on Instagram a few weeks ago. My girls tease me that I am a quote nerd.  I proudly reply that my grandfather taught me long ago to appreciate the potent message delivered by a cleverly strung cluster of words 😉

While I did not personally coin this particular acronym, it well describes my experiences in 2016.

No one can claim immunity from fear, but fear only defines us if we chose to allow it.   

Fear of the unknown provides one of my greatest personal challenges.  I am a stalwart creature of habit, and I like to be in control.  As a result, my decision last summer to close the feed yard left me terrified. Over the course of 2016, I discovered that a decision takes on an entirely new level of enormity when it involves altering a 45 year old business.

The mental process of defining the cause of fear provides a critical survival practice for me.  While I may occasionally wish that I could forget everything and run; the act of facing the challenge ultimately provides the courage to rise above it. As I reflect on 2016, I acknowledge the personal struggle that marked most of the year.

I end this time period proud of my decisions and the actions that resulted from them.  2017 will bring change; however, I stayed true to my core values and consequently can look with both excitement as well as confidence on into the future.

Sherry Bunting did a wonderful job “telling my story” in a recent article in the Progressive Cattlemen magazine entitled As Will Feed Closes, Reflecting On Twenty Years In the Feed Yard.  You can read it by clicking here.

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Happy New Year to you and your loved ones! 

May 2017 inspire you to face everything and rise…

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