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Our Covid Story…

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Inspiration this week comes from Proverbs 3: 5

“Trust in the Lord with all your heart; do not depend on your own understanding.”


Covid-19 found our family over the holidays. Meg was the first to decide that she didn’t feel very well. Ashley Grace and Matt were quick to follow. For the girls, it started with a sore throat and headache that came and went for days before escalating into full-fledged illness. As it progressed, they got pretty sick and we realized that it wasn’t just a cold. Matt was blessed and experienced a much milder infection. Honestly, if the girls hadn’t gotten so sick I’m not sure that we would have realized that Matt had Covid. All three of them rounded out the journey with a loss of taste and smell. Karyn and I ended up moving into the basement and wearing our masks all the time. As the other three came out of isolation at the end of their illness, Karyn and I both tested negative with neither of us developing any symptoms.

It was a strange time. A time with lots of uncertainty as we navigated sickness in addition to testing, CDC guidelines, and trying to figure out how to be a good neighbor. ย For me, these same days were also filled with moments when my heart swelled with gratitude as I watched God take care of us – little things each day that kept hope and peace in my heart, and inspired us to move forward in faith. ย I spent time in prayer, and walked lots of miles with both my family and our dogs. I am a firm believer that each day requires the “3 F’s”: faith, fresh air and fitness. “Coach Anne” melded with “Mama Anne” and Team Burkholder held it together.


There were many things over the course of the adventure that were unclear and perhaps even confusing.

  • Where did Meg get exposed to the bug?
  • Why did the older girls get much sicker than Matt?
  • Why did Karyn and I remain healthy?
  • Why was Meg’s testing experience inconsistent and more complicated than the rest of ours?

I could go on with the list, but what I learned over the past two weeks was that my own understanding, that human understanding, was not going to materialize. Our family has more questions than answers regarding Covid-19 even after going through the experience. The folks from the Nebraska Health Department were awesome to work with and super kind and patient with us, but they added to the list of questions rather than providing answers to ours. We are a house full of intellectuals. Truly, each of the five of us could easily be called “a nerd”. As my brain kicked in filling itself with “why’s”, I quickly realized that I needed to be intentional about “God’s Part, My Part, Other’s Part”.ย  As I did that, it became clear to me that I could trust in the Lord with all my heart instead of depending on my own understanding.


I spent a significant portion of my early adult life fighting against my need for Jesus. At critical times, I chose to stiff arm the faith that I felt in my heart in order to try to persevere on my own. I am so very thankful that I don’t do that anymore as this “covid journey” would have been much, much harder.

Recently, someone asked me why Jesus matters to me. The answer is simple: my life is better with Him. He makes me different. No matter what this earth throws at me, it’s better with Jesus. He’s my coach. He’s my Savior. He brings me hope as He carries me through this life and prepares me for Heaven.

I’ve found peace as I realized that I don’t have to understand, I just need to trust in the One that does ๐Ÿ™‚

 

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A Change of Plans…

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Inspiration this week comes from Paul’s letter to the Galatians 6: 9-10

“So let’s not get tired of doing what is good. At just the right time we will reap a harvest of blessing if we don’t give up. Therefore, whenever we have the opportunity, we should do good to everyone – especially those in the family of faith.”


Our family had aย change of plansย this week. Saturday morning, we set out for Colorado to visit family. We hadn’t gotten very far down the road when Megan got a text from one of her pole vault coaches letting her know that someone whom she pole vaulted with had tested positive for COVID-19. The privilege of vaulting during the month of July has truly blessed Meg. Due to the cancellation of the track season, it had been almost a year since she had the chance to vault. We live in “small town” America where sports generally still have seasons, and many athletes participate in 3-4 different sports per year. For Meg, spring was for track – and this year, track essentially didn’t happen. It’s a little bit unnerving to set off to compete in college in an event that you haven’t been able to practice for a year, so being able to vault this summer was a beautiful gift ๐Ÿ™‚

A series of phone calls after Meg received the text led us to the decision to abort the family vacation and return home. We were gone a grand total of 4 and 1/2 hours, and waved at the Colorado border as we turned back around to come home to Cozad. By later in the afternoon, Megan had received a request by the local health department to quarantine in an attempt to limit possible spread in our county. While Meg did not show any signs of disease, she had come in contact with someone who expressed symptoms and tested positive.

Quarantining on the farm really isn’t much of a big deal. We’ve got lots of space and enough chores to keep a person busy. The big “gut check” came from the realization that Meg would still be in quarantine during her high school graduation set for August 1st. After multiple conversations with our local medical staff, we were told that testing a young, healthy, symptom-free 18 year old held little validity so she did not have the option of “testing out of quarantine”.

Graduation will go on without Meg on Saturday and her valedictorian speech delivered via video. It’s a goofy way to finish a goofy year, but we feel that this is the appropriate decision. Not just because it follows what the medical community is asking us to do, but because God has placed peace on our hearts that it is the right thing to do.


During swim team this summer, we talked quite a bit about God’s call to be “humble”. I believe thatย humility is not thinking less of yourself but rather thinking MORE OF OTHERS. It is looking outside of yourself to notice and act on the needs of others. Quite simply, it is the act of serving – of having a more “Jesus perspective” – of working to create goodness by blessing others. Humility is a gift of the Spirit with which Megan is fully blessed. I believe that it is something that God specifically gave to her, and that He continues to shape within her. Megan naturally thinks of others and places their needs ahead of her own. As promised in the Bible, Jesus continues to place his peace and strength in her heart to fuel her on that journey.

I think that this is one of those times when God is using Megan to make a difference. We may never know what the difference is, and that is okay. It may be keeping someone else safe and healthy, it may be protecting Meg as she prepares to head off to college, or it may simply be that Jesus’ light will shine brighter as she gets to practice the art of being humble one last time as a Senior at Cozad High School. No matter what it is, I know that Megan is blessed. Our family is blessed. And, we are grateful to get to serve such an awesome God. Our hearts are filled with the hope that comes from the knowledge that we will reap a harvest of blessing if we don’t give up!

We would like to ask for your prayers over the next few weeks. Prayers for continued peace and good health as we travel this journey. Thank you all for loving us and being a part of our faith family ๐Ÿ™‚

May God’s grace and peace fill your hearts!

 

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Leading With Grace…

Wednesday Wisdom ๐Ÿ™‚


Inspiration for this week comes from Paul’s letter to Colossians 3: 12-14

“Since God chose you to be the holy people he loves, you must clothe yourselves with tenderhearted mercy, kindness, humility, gentleness, and patience. Make allowance for each other’s faults, and forgive anyone who offends you. Remember, the Lord forgave you, so you must forgive others. Above all, clothe yourselves with love, which binds us all together in perfect harmony.”


When you look in the mirror what do you see? What story do your eyes tell? Do you see love, humility, mercy and gentle strength? Or, do your eyes tell a different tale?

My favorite farmer has a keepsake from his years as a wrestler. It was a gift from his coach, and we still have it in our house. It’s a frame that includes pictures of the District Champs Haymaker wrestling team, as well as a poem entitled “The Man in the Glass”. Coach Bonesteel followed the poem with his own thoughts:

“The meaning is that we must make the best of the ability God has given us. We have to do the things that are right rather than those that make us look good or make us popular. When all is said and done each day and we put our head on the pillow, it’s just us and God, and we can’t fool either one.”

I’ve never met Coach Bonesteel, but he left a lasting impression on my husband. Matt did not find his greatest athletic victories on the wrestling mat, but I think he’d tell you that he learned more in his time wrestling than any other athletic experience. It made him a better athlete and (more importantly) it made him a better human ๐Ÿ™‚


A big ‘thank you’ to Katie Arndt for the picture!

The next couple of weeks are big weeks for my favorite blonde cowgirl. They will not unfold in the way we originally intended, but they still mark an important time that reveals her heart and her character. Tomorrow was to be the District Track Meet, Saturday – high school graduation, and the following week the Nebraska State Track Championships. None of these events will occur, just as all seniors across the country have been called to end their high school careers without the traditional sense of closure. At Meg’s request, we’ve taken down the high school calendar that hangs on the wall in the kitchen, and we jokingly harass her about writing the graduation speech (due Friday) that she hopes to be able to give in person on August 1st.

To casually talk to her, you’d never know the disappointment that lies deep in her heart or the fear that threatens to take hold when she thinks about the future. She stubbornly clings to hope and covers up the hurt with her own blend of sunshine and sass. As her mom, I know that the loss of fellowship with classmates, teachers, teammates, coaches and church family is both tangible and heartbreaking. I see it weigh her down, but I watch as she resolutely chooses to cling to Grace.

As I read Coach Bonesteel’s poem and the above verses from Colossians, I envision Meg standing in front of her mirror – tears falling down her face – alternately asking God “why” while also imploring Him to exchange the frustration, disappointment and fear with a cloak of tenderhearted mercy, kindness, humility, gentleness, and patience. She knows that at the end of the day, it’s just her and God, and that she can’t fool either one. Her eyes tell a meaningful story.

And, she inspires me as she believes, loves and leads with Grace.


*My thoughts, prayers, and support go out to all of the high school seniors who give of themselves to provide a solid foundation for our country as they choose to endure with faith and lead with Grace ๐Ÿ™‚ Thank you for clothing yourselves in love to help us bind together in harmony!

 

 

 

 

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