The Heart’s Desires…

Wednesday Wisdom πŸ™‚

Inspiration this week comes from Psalms 37: 3-6

“Trust in the Lord and do good. Then you will live safely in the land and prosper. Take delight in the Lord, and he will give you your heart’s desires. Commit everything you do to the Lord. Trust him, and he will help you. He will make your innocence radiate like the dawn, and the justice of your cause will shine like the noonday sun.”

It’s always been a dream of mine to be a “mom”. One of the big reasons that my favorite farmer and I decided to move back to Nebraska was the desire to raise a family on the farm. As a farm kid with a MS in electrical engineering, Matt was likely “over-educated” for his professional choice. At the same time, my South Florida city roots and degree in psychology left me closer to the “under-educated” end of the spectrum. We were young and we followed our hearts, despite the mixed advice that we received from well-meaning friends and family.

When it came down to it, the question of whether or not we were appropriately qualified took a back seat to the strong call to follow our hearts’ desires.Β 

Twenty four years later, I look back and know that my heart did not lead me astray. Just as the God who put the call into my heart is trustworthy, so was my ability to find discernment and courage regardless of circumstance. The years have flown past, but the joy and the lessons proved bountiful. Together we learned to love deeply, to work passionately, and to respect each other and the farm that brought us all together. My girls can wield a scoop shovel with the best of them, and know how to work with a combination of smile and grit. They pack their faith well, fueled by servant hearts who look up for guidance and out to see those who are in need.

Life has stages and chapters. My girls are on the cusp of becoming women. Matt and I are in a new place that perhaps requires more trust and faith than when we decided to move from the East Coast back to the farm. Even though I know better, my heart is tempted to be selfish. It desires to hold my girls close even as I know that it is time to let God move them as He moved me all those years ago.

My favorite brunette sees her 21st birthday in 2020 and will spend more of the next twelve months abroad than in the United States. Teaching and mission work in Panama will fill her summer, followed by a semester living and going to school in Chile at the start of 2021. There will be a time this summer when all three of our girls will be in other countries doing mission work at the same time. As hard as it is to trust your own life to God, for me it is harder to trust the lives of my children. And yet, I know that it what I am called to do.

The Holy Spirit has been nudging my heart recently, reminding it of its job to trust and to share. On Friday morning at WayMakers, the middle schoolers acted out the Parable of the Three Servants (Matthew 25: 14-29) and we studied the purpose and responsibility of gifts or talents. Then, our Pastor reminded me on Sunday morning that blessings are meant to be shared. They are given to inspire selflessness, not selfishness. God loves a cheerful giver πŸ™‚ Sometimes the ask is hard.

I know that God did not bless Matt and I with our girls for us to hoard them and hold them tight. He blessed us with them so that they, in turn, could bless others.

As I read the above verses in Psalms last weekend, my heart received another reminder. All those years ago, I trusted in the Lord and we’ve lived safely and prospered on the farm for decades. God gave me my heart’s desire as I became a wife and a mom. Now, Jesus asks me to commit everything to Him, to trust Him and live in the center of His will. He asks me to let Him guide those beautiful girls so that they radiate like the dawn and shine like the noonday sun.

Who am I to say “no”?

So I trust.

And I pray.

And my heart fills.

And my eyes water.

And, I pray some more.

And, I am truly thankful for this journey: the times I’ve experienced, and the ones that I have yet to come. Joy is a courageous choice, one that clings tightly to the heart and is fueled by the hope, love, peace, and forgiveness found in faith πŸ™‚


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5 responses to “The Heart’s Desires…

  1. Roger Hunt

    I’ve been reading a lot lately and two of the novels involved terribly dysfunctional families. I gained a lot of insight but it was painful to see such hurtful relationships. By contrast, it is such a joy to follow your beautiful family. May God continue to bless your faithfulness.

    • Thank you, Roger! So glad that our paths have crossed on the journey πŸ™‚ Enjoy your family and all that God has blessed you with.

      Are you getting snow in Iowa? We are white again in Nebraska. I audited all day today at a feed yard and am reminded of the joy of winter on the farm πŸ˜‰


  2. Becky Saddler

    Anne, this is so right on! I so remember those feelings! Now God is speaking to me again. Wish we lived closer. On another note, I went to Comeca last week to talk with the director. Really enjoyed the visit.

    • Glad that you got out to Comeca! Justin, Amy, Micah and Jordan are a great bunch and I believe that Jesus is present at Comeca once again πŸ™‚

      I pray that your leg has healed and that you are filled with discernment as you ponder your next “steps”. Thank you for your note — it’s great to hear from you.

      Take care,

  3. Hi Anne.
    Glad to be visiting your blog again. It’s been awhile. I’ve been attending to and adjusting to my own three young adults launching into the world this past fall. What a change! Despite the fact that it’s had me wandering in circles on occasion, I have to say, it is more exciting and joyful than I would have predicted when they were toddlers or school age. As they grow and function productively and positively in the world on their own, I am filled with gratitude that we have had so much time together and that so far our relationships are holding strong despite the miles between us. Blessings to you and yours as you find joy in this amazing new season.


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