Yesterday morning we shipped the final pens of cattle from the feed yard to Tyson. A calm wind with temperatures in the mid-20’s provided an easy ship out environment. Mother Nature also rewarded us with a beautiful sunrise toward the end of the process.
As I watched the last cattle truck pull away from the load-out chute, my emotions threatened to get the best of me. I took a moment to remember back to the first of the lasts as I experienced the last of the lasts. This particular shipment marked the end of our feed yard era, and the finality of the moment left me drained.
I wasn’t quite sure how to feel with the knowledge that, for the first time in twenty years, I had no cattle directly depending on me for care. An internal struggle waged as the uplifting element of freedom fought with the deep rooted desire to be needed.
Recognizing the necessity and wisdom in change is sometimes easier than living it out. Watching the cattle truck pull away forced me to face the reality in a way that I had not yet done. I took a brief moment to feel sorry for myself before I packed my FAITH and went back to work.
In that transition moment from self-pity to resolve, I made the decision to be happy.
While that decision does not preclude me from experiencing difficult moments tinged with sadness, it focuses my attitude on the positive and grants me the strength to make the most of the future. LIFE is a verb, and I recognize that my ability to achieve happiness is directly related to how I chose to live it.
- Staying true to my core values
- Trusting both myself and God on the journey
- Recognizing that there is so very much more left to do on the journey…
All of these things give my life purpose, and I am looking forward to cowgirling up to make the most of it.