I want to begin by thanking everyone who has reached out to me personally over the past week. Please know how important it is to me to hear from you. As many of you have guessed, this is personally a difficult time and each positive thought that I receive puts a smile on my face and peace in my heart.
Making “life decisions” requires both a leap of faith and a vision for the future. My favorite farmer and I have packed our faith — looking forward to a future of continuing to contribute to agriculture in a meaningful and positive way. Shifting our farm and my role on the farm is simply the product of two responsible farmers figuring out how to do the best thing for their family and their farm. Change is never easy, but showing grace amidst change is a priority for me both as a farmer and as a mom.
Many of you will remember a blog post that my favorite blonde cowgirl wrote about a month ago. The Rainbow Ends At the Pot of Gold provides a list of things Megan reported learning “growing up at the feed yard”. Not long after Matt and I told our girls that we planned to close the feed yard, Megan asked if she could write a blog post. I have always encouraged the girls to take pictures/write/and generally contribute to the blog so my immediate answer was “yes”. That weekend, I came home from working to find Megan and Karyn laughing as they compiled this master *list* — reminiscing and chronicling lessons learned taking care of the cattle.
It made me laugh — it made me cry — it made me incredibly proud as I watched them turn their grief and fear for the future into something beautiful and positive. I love that blog post for a number of different reasons, but it truly touched my heart to watch my girls dig deep and choose to embrace the positive as they struggled with the thought of change.
Although we will no longer have a cattle feed yard, the girls and I are making plans to purchase some calves next spring to graze our grass pasture. We’ll need to find a new feed yard to finish them in come fall, but this project will allow them to continue to participate in the cattle business on a small scale. I’d hate to remove all character building exercises from their lives 😉
Despite the fact that I’ve announced my impending retirement, my life still revolves around the feed yard. I am checking cattle health this week as my cowboy is on vacation, so I get to start each day with a beautiful sunrise and a large number of bovines…
I am toying with the idea of creating a category on the blog site for Chronicles of a Retiring Feed Yard Boss Lady which would enable me to stay organized writing during this time of transition. I’m open to other ideas for the category name, so feel free to share your thoughts.